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                                    <sup>* - because of their past –– rocky at times, however overall leaving a positive impression –– siah would do anything for elwood. he could count the amount of people he’d sacrifice things for on one hand, however elwood was once his best friend, there were once feelings that surpassed best friends by a long shot, and despite those feelings no longer being present, elwood has and always will remain close to his heart. the two could go months without talking, and if elwood called siah up for a favour, siah wouldn’t hesitate to do anything he asked. though, he doubts elwood ever would ask for anything. 

                                     ‘ not delusional, babe, just trying to break down that impossibly huge ego of yours so i can have an actual conversation with you … ‘   siah quirks an eyebrow, a little smile on his lips in response to his own words.     ‘ oh … is that when you started looking like shit ? ‘    he asks playfully.  there’s not much in the world he loves doing more than teasing elwood.    ‘ i kid….you know you’re hot. i don’t need to say it. ‘    he’ll always make sure elwood knows he’s kidding, though ; he’d never want to hurt the other with his sharp tongue. 

                                     though the hug is fleeting and the movements of the other are awkward, siah doesn’t feel tense. with anyone else, he’d feel guilty about asking for a hug and receiving such an awkward reaction, but siah figures that’s just elwood ––– and it’s most likely the most physical contact they’ll have for a while.   ‘ so … what’s new ? it’s been a year, what have you been up to ?  married anyone ? ‘</sup>

               _{there’s no doubt that, many moons ago, elwood’s feelings for siah were far from strictly platonic – he wouldn’t go as far to say he was in love with him, but he does remember it coming pretty close. of course, as it usually does with elwood, those feelings disappeared almost as quickly as they seemed to arrive ; he falls hard and fast, but he often has no struggle with cutting himself off. deep down, though he’d never admit it at the time, he knew he and siah would never work out, anyway, something he eventually came to acknowledge. as they stand now, however, he does miss him being his friend – being there for him, someone to joke with and laugh with and cause trouble with. it’s that, above all else, that he’s missed about the boy before him.}

                _{❛  … you wouldn’t want this ego to go away, sweetheart. i wouldn’t be me without it,  ❜  his own smile quickly transfers into something a little cheekier, shrugging his shoulders. ❛  – you don’t need t’tell me i’m attractive. you’re damn right i know.  ❜  idly, his fingers shift through his curls, and for a moment elwood takes a second to merely look at siah - to take note of how much he’s changed, and although some of the changes about him are obvious, there’s something there that’s also so familiar.}

               _{elwood remembers a time when he had no qualms with physical contact. in fact, he was quite the opposite – his affinity for affection and touch got him in to trouble a number of times, even when his intentions were innocent ( though, admittedly, this wasn’t often. ) at his question, elwood shakes his head, shrugging his shoulders.  ❛  … lucas ‘n i got married a year ago, actually. last july. we, um – we broke up, though. ‘bout two weeks ago –  ❜  the way he shifts and averts his gaze makes it clear he doesn’t wish to continue that topic any longer. ❛  … what about with you  –?  ❜}